Anyway, she comes round at the weekend, we have sex, and then I start asking her about what happened.
She doesn’t want to talk about it and her body language is off.
It’s like pm, and I’m lying in bed with her hugging her and she’s not reciprocating anything.
I told her I’m going to cook and left her alone in bed, as I assumed it would be better if I left her alone for a bit.
There was a time-bomb waiting to explode in this relationship at the end of the year anyway when I leave London to go traveling.
She was aware of it, and we both knew that it would be a lot worse to break up then than to break up sooner.
The moment you drop that frame, it all starts to go downhill for you with an English girl as she tries to take advantage of the situation by reaching for the power.She fell for me a lot sooner than I thought she would and she fell for me hard.I, as I mentioned before, was quite cold about the situation and said that if she left my life the next day then it wouldn’t affect me too much.I didn’t want to, but I was plunging her into misery unintentionally and I didn’t want to keep hurting her.She’d told me previously that she wanted to break up with me so many times but “I don’t know what it is but I want to stay with you”.I wrote in my post “Broken Inside Because of Oneitis?” that I was feeling disconnected from her and other girls, that I couldn’t quite bring myself around to feeling strongly for a girl. After learning about Game, how to make girls fall for me and to keep them interested, my heart has got colder and colder.Her little face was doing the best it could to hold back the tears and it took her a lot of strength to say what she did, and my heart sank seeing what I’d done to her.I talked her back inside and we talked about her court thing, and as she told me it, she started crying. It was a hard sight for me, she’s an innocent, sweet girl that was giving everything to me and I’d treated her marginally better than I would a fuck buddy.There were a couple of times where she said to me that I had to change if I wanted to see her again because she was unhappy in the relationship with me, and she said she felt like a whore when she came round sometimes.That made me think about the way I was treating her, because I did like this girl a lot and I didn’t want her to feel that way.